August 8th, 2011, So I sit here in Yasminia
08 Aug 2011 1 Comment
in about Dio Tags: Euro Brats, Jenny Maurer, rabea Landar, Rivers Rock, Stonehaven, Teyonas Miklos, Valerie Webwyre, Yasmin Heartsdale, Yasminia
So I sit here in Yasminia on the small island with the yellow anchor, settings to sundown, listening to the music chanel that Yasmin as chosen and look at Yasmin’s house, the lighthouse, the tree with the pixies. I feel strange beyond all the support and love I expierenced yesterday and today. The collar around my neck is off. Strange my collar is off, Yasmin is wearing a collar now.
So I sit here in Yasminia at the edge of a different SL for me and my family. My view goes over to the house and memories come alive, pictures, scenes, beloved people who left. What did I do? Why? I had crying attacks today. Shall I really write about this? Is this my way to get it off my chest? Do I need to justify? My collar lays in Goddess’ lil skybox on the table. A piece of steel that companied me as a part of my avatar and my SL for 39 months.
I had a great time as Yas’ Enforcer. Goddess reputation, my sisters, her family, the innumerable friends were base of my SL and helped me to become what I am here. All gone now? ‘Life is a bitch’ is one of Goddess’ (now Yasmin for me) most favorite sayings. Moments can’t be held forever, people change, preferences change. Our yearning for new kinks, for progress, for fun and for love keeps us going and moving on. Life is a bitch, everything changes with time. Over the last couple of months I began to question my role in Yasmin’s family. My SL went well, hers went well as she said but they went parallel. Different timezone and RL did add to it. To make it very clear for everyone: It is not Yasmin’s fault, nor is it mine, nor anyone’s else!
My decision to ask for release was facing reality as it is and when I did ask Yasmin expected it. I felt that she was prepared for it. It might be our both fault not having talked earlier.
So I sit here in Yasmina very thankful for what the Eurobrats and I had. Thankful for the respect and dignity with which we ended one chapter and began a new one for both of us, for both families which are and will stay connected. No bad word, no reproaches but sort of mutual understanding that Life is a bitch.
So I sit here in Yasminia my thoughts go back over these 39 months…. Stonehaven, Samatha, Mises West, Rivers Rock, Bratz Club, Teyonas, rabea, Yasminia, Caer Heartsdale, the patio in SH.. the deck at Yasminia, Hotel California, my wedding, Chez Maurer, Yar, Jill, Valerie, the new Yasminia, the pool area, Greedy, the clock with the falling numbers….hundreds, thousands of pictures spring alive. Innumerable family charts still on my harddrive – and now a families chart with 2 families on it.
Thank you for our path together, Yasmin. Thank you for all you provided for me and Jenny and for our subs. I hope and I am confident that our way is not finished but just got a new direction .. and moving on as sisters.
I’ve once been told that my loyality and devotion to Yasmin is undyable. And so I sit here in Yasminia and realize that it is still there, maybe the emphasis has changed. My thankfullness, my love and my trust in my sister is undyable.
I love you Yasmin
Diomita
August 8th, 2011
At times melancholy
17 May 2010 1 Comment
in about family members Tags: Claire Sykes, Fae Howlett, Rayn Halfpint, Siobhan Rhapsody, Teyonas Miklos, Yasmin Heartsdale
Now that I am 2 years collared by Goddess the family just changes a lot. Goddess took a short break of SL and shortly after her return she and Tey parted. While I never talked much to Tey I always appreciated her patient and calm ways. And I could always rely on her. Although I don’t know how things will develop it leaves me being melancholy. Tey was Goddess’ first brat and she companied me as a sister through nearly all my SL life.
At the same time, and I know it is just a coincidence, my sister Claire asked to be released from Goddess’ collar and consequently also gave up her submission to me. Claire simply wants to explore other things in SL and roam around free and independent. She will stay close to us and I am happy to know her. My other subsister Fae didn’t return really since Summer 2009 except for 3 or 4 short visits. We hope that she’s doing well and as far as we know she is doing well.
Rayn, who also was always sort of a family member, left SL. Luckily we know she’s doing fine and she has made this decision as she’s convinced that it is the best for her.
I read several other blogs who dealt with the subject of people suddenly leaving SL without any notice. I can only say that it hurts when close friends simply leave and cut all connections. Although this is a virtual world the relations that we build can be quite strong. And those that left, left a footprint in SL. They left people thinking of them and worrying what happened. My sub Siobhan is one of those who left and I look at the pictures that I have and ask myself whether she will ever come back, whether she’s doing well. Let’s hope the best.
Last but not least when Goddess took a break and used the word “hiatus”, I needed to look it up in my dictionary. I begin to doubt now – hiatus might be a SL virus.
When something is changing we tend to become melancholy as we know what we had and as we have a natural discomfort about the unknown future. Just writing this down helps me to overcome this discomfort. I look forward happy about what I had in SL and confident to be resistant to the hiatus virus.
Doing my 2nd year revival trial for Goddess
01 May 2010 1 Comment
in anniversary blog entries Tags: Claire Sykes, Danii Szydlowska, Jenny Maurer, Pike Mayo, Santana Thibedeau, Teyonas Miklos, Tyra Sciarri, Valerie Webwyre, vero Lacombe, Virgo Babii, Yar Telling, Yasmin Heartsdale
For my upcoming 2nd year anniversary of being collared by Goddess I asked her to lock me down for a week. That might sound strange to those who know me particularly as I have had no idea how and where she might lock me. She just said that she grants my wish.
Since Tuesday I sit in a capsule. the same capsule as during my trial. Goddess has placed a cask with a wooden dildo just in front of the capsule and when Jenny is online she rides the dildo an comes unrealistic often. She counted every 4 minutes. I have to watch how she polishes the dildo with her pussy. Do I begin to develop a fetisch for wooden pussy polished dildos?
Anyway as I kneel here tied tightly in my cosy capsule I have time to write.
I get a lots of visits. My family comes to me and I enjoy the attention that I get. Even my sister Yar has been here today*smiles. What a nice vist. My newest sub, vero Lacombe drops by whenever she’s online. My sister Valerie visited me a lot already. This morning I saw my only slaveboy Santana. Today also Danii, my cutie, was online. I had left her leashed and blindfolded, deaf and gagged with her armbinder on the terrace. Yar managed to move the leash pole down to my cell and cutie companied me for over an hour. She was so eager to see me but couldn’t. Later today Pike was here. She managed to escape from prison to see me. Awwww, I’m spoiled. My sister Tey who I hadn’t see for a long while was here. Goddess was here daily whenever she could. Claire was here. And many others dropped by. Tyra, who companied me during my trial spent several hours with me *muah. And of course Jenny companies me when she’s online. And yesterday Jenny and me listened to the stream of our regular Friday night party hosted by Virgo Babii. What a fun. So I can really have a good time.
My thoughts go 2 years back often. What a rare luck I had to meet Goddess and to enter this family. I feel loved … and love my family in return.
Come and visit me as long as I am here *smiles brightly
